Here Comes The Part Where Immature People Will Freak Out :(

17..18..19..20. Those are number that no one expect to be so fast. For some reason, immature people like me (lol!!)never thought of getting adults and settle in the new phase of our life, but of course we all will ended up being adult somehow. Life gets difficult when we got older. I think that what really freak me out when the time has come for us to feel something..adulthood???? Damn.. So, this is how it feels when we're about to turn 20 huhh.. People may said its normal and . I can pretend to be cool and act like a normal, u know, like we turn 17, somehow i don't feel like to be in that phase!!! Maybe you've heard 'whats the big deal gettin 20??'..well pretty sure its a big deal because it is the part of our life.. 'cycle of life'. Too many things need to get done, huge responsibilities, being independent..Arggggg!!! too much for immature 'kid' like me. Is tis a pressure i feel??? Damn, hate it when pressure silently come, especially it doesn't come from books and notes like the one that i've spend red for this whole week. Somehow, i feel grateful and very thankful because i was given a chance to feel and be part of gettin 20 and being an adult. Just for this month, i've heard few news about a friends. That was very pity and sad. Anyway, dz morning i will go back to my hometown, Kuching and tomorrow is a big day for me but i don't feel like to enjoy the day. Hope that my family don't plan or thinking to throw a party for me. I hate surprise but i knew it can or will happen. It happen to me last year, 2 days after i got back. I cried when my mother took out the birthday cake & there goes the singing and wishing thing..hahah!!! I mean like when you will get a chance to surprise others if not on their birthday. lol. I think planning to hide in a closet on my birthday, avoid gettin noticed.lol Seriously, if i had given any power, i would choose to build a time machine, so i can go back to past and see what i've done to my life so far. IT IS HARD TO LET GO OF YOUR LIFE WHEN WE STILL CREATING OURSELVES. But, no worries, we are no. one helper for ourself. God will always be there for us :) So far, im happy with my life, being who i am, whom i live with, even life never been perfect (it is not).
 These song somehow recall how i can done better than what i've done in past. But, what is done is done!!! (that reminds me of one thing lol)

 

 Time Won't Let Go

Whenever I look back
On the best days of my life
I think I saw them all on T.V.
I am so homesick now for
Someone that I never knew
I am so homesick now for
Someplace I will never be

Time won't let me go
If I could do it all again
I'd go back and change everything
But time won't let me go

I never had a 'Summer of 69'
Never had a Cherry Valance of my own
All these precious moments
You promised me would come in time
So where was I when I missed mine?

 

If I could go back once again
I would change everything, yeah
If I could go back once again
I'd do it all so much better

Sleeping With Sirens-Let Love Bleed Red

Is it naive to make plans that seem so far away?
There's a reason I feel this way,
you're sleeping alone, I'm awake.
As you dream of me tonight, am I close to where you are?

Lay me down,
and tell me everything will be alright, things will be alright.
Lay me down,
and tell me everything will be alright. Things will be alright.
This could mean everything or nothing at all
You take what is real, I'll give you my all.

Is it naive to make plans that seem so, so, so far?
I think, "let's not wait, let's love right now.
Let's love right now."

Lay me down,
and tell me everything will be alright, things will be alright.
Lay me down,
and tell me everything will be alright. Things will be alright.

[Aaron Marsh]
Oh here where we lie, outstretched to wonder why we don't belong.
You deserve much more, and I'll give until I'm all gone.
Forever know your face and ever take your place here by my side,
like a ghost into night,
the poisoned apple to my bite.
I'll be the shadow at your door,
I'll be the moth into your light,
cause you deserve much more.
Yeah, you deserve much more.

Lay me down,
tell me everything will be alright, things will be alright.
Thunder storms could never shake us.
Lay me down and kiss me like things will be alright.
Everything will be alright.
This could mean everything or nothing at all.
You take what is real, I'll give you my all. 

Aren't the lyrics just amazing...every words just sank deep inside my blood. I Fucking Love This song. <3

Attention to Cat Keepers!!!!

5 reasons to keep your cat indoor. Take note ^_^
Many people think it's natural to let their cats go outdoors. Unfortunately, an indoor-outdoor cat's lifespan is on average several years shorter than that of an indoor-only cat. Here are five very important reasons to keep your cat indoors:

1. Disease. Cats allowed outdoors always manage to come into contact with other cats, and from these encounters they can get parasites like fleas and worms, or more serious diseases like leukemia, feline infectious peritonitis, and feline immunodeficiency virus. Light-colored cats can also develop skin cancer from overexposure to the sun.
2. Injury. More cats are killed by cars each year than are euthanized in US animal shelters. Indoor cats are safe from predators and dog packs; even with a full set of teeth and claws, cats rarely have a chance against dogs or predatory birds, and declawed cats are at even higher risk. Indoor cats are also safe from human abuse. It's unfortunate but true that there are cruel people who get a kick out of torturing cats.
3. Neighbors. Even the best cats will venture into neighbors' yards when they're allowed to roam. Your cat won't win friends by using your neighbors' gardens as litter boxes or hunting birds in their back yard. Some people have resorted to extreme measures, including poisoning, to keep cats away.
4. Wildlife. Cats are predators by nature, and even those who never were taught to hunt will eventually chase and kill birds, rabbits, and other wildlife. Studies have been done that show cat predation has a significant impact on songbird populations in some areas.
5. Getting lost. Cats that roam may be “rescued” by other cat lovers or legitimate rescue groups, or picked up as strays by animal control officers. Statistics show that of “owned” cats turned in to shelters, only 3 percent are reunited with their owners. Collars can break, and even microchips don't guarantee your cat will be returned to you. Cats can and do get lost when they get too far from their home turf.

we're INDICUS!!

Officially on April, 2nd 2011, we're Indicus competed live for Dance & Music Festival. Wow!! i am so proud of my band. Thanks to Lieliana, Ecca, Cindy & Suyong for making that night the best night of my life. we're really rock the night, girl. Indicus is the only UPMKB band for this festival. we're also the only female band compete out of 5 bands. Winning the 3rd place still sounds unbelievable for us. But, anything can happens, keep that in mind. Im speechless, we all are.. Indicus are really hardly formed. Originally, we wanna keep it 3 piece band at first, but seems really hard without bass and lead. So, we try to look any girls that can play music. (we do wanna all girls for the band). I think that is the uniqueness of Indicus. With lack of training and practice, we do almost giving up to participate, thinking that the outsiders band were much experienced and well known compared to us. We're just..u know.. pretty much like girl high school band. But, we make it, yoo!!!! Talking bout night of April, 2nd, we performed 2 songs, malay and english. First song is 'situasi' by Bunkface, our local band and 'when im with you' by Faber Drive. It is one of my favorite song, of course. So, me as a vox, i tried not to screw that night, but mistakes happens all the time. However, i think i did managed it well. Now, about the future...ermmm... maybe Indicus will look forward to compete and participate in any UPMKB events, battle of the bands perhaps. Whatever it is, academic always come first. Once again, i am so proud of Indicus!! My mom would not believe this though. lol. Lastly, thanks to all audiences who supports us that night and sing along with me.!!!!!!!!

first song, i guess

interview by the press

we're on display screen..yuuu

we're on!!